Grateful

Today my post is about being grateful, so many people forget these days that they should have plenty to be grateful for, however, most of them let negative rule their days. I am totally guilty of this! Some days there are so many negative things that present themselves and it is hard to look past them and find something to be grateful for. I had found myself in one of those places these last few days, and it has been hard to find those things to feel good about, now most of you who actually know me know that I am a Mom and my daughter is my one thing I am grateful for everyday, she is my angel, my rock and the love of my life. Not to sound like a negative Nancy here, but sometimes you look past what you know makes you grateful and look for something new, something beyond the usual things, and that is okay.
The reason I am posting about being grateful, is because I am not only grateful for my daughter, but I am grateful for so many of my friends, out of the blue of my daughters friends Mom, (who is also my friend) asked me if M wanted some jeans that her daughter had grown out of, they were like new and if they fit M she could have them. I of course offered to pay for them, but she refused. To my surprise, these jeans looked like they had just come off the shelf, and they are some of the name brands I know I could not afford right now. The statement of a "few pairs" made me think of 4 or 5 maybe, and I was so happy about that. I was shocked to see a large paper Macy's bag sitting on my porch, that was almost full to the top, every single pair fit M perfectly.
Once the fashion show was over, I was overjoyed with the gift, and posted my elation on FB to share how blessed and grateful I was for the jeans. So many of my friends were happy for us and showed their support for my happy moment, which in turn made me even more grateful. In my post I stated that now all I needed to get her was a few more shirts and some shoes, a few more of our friends offered her some shoes they bought that didn't end up fitting, and some shirts their daughter didn't wear. I couldn't believe what was happening, I certainly didn't ask for help, I didn't mean for people to give her things, I am not the type of person who asks for help, or to give to much information on what is going on in my current life. I will share my stories of my past to help others if it is relevant to them and what they are going through, but as far as what is current I very rarely say much about it.
The outpouring of love and help from all of our friends was needless to say overwhelming, because I was just now able to return to work last week, so in the school clothes department, I was unable to get her a lot of things, but enough to get her started. She has 2 pairs of jeans that fit her still until the others came along, and had a few good shirts to get her through, she had one pair of shoes to get her started but they are canvas and already wearing out. I am usually the one who helps others, volunteers my time to work with kids, to sit with someone and listen to what they have to say no matter what it is and keep their secrets safe, I am not the one who asks for help, who accepts help easily, or wants to look weak to others ever, but in this grateful moment in my life, I cried over these gifts from people who we call friends. It may seem silly to cry over clothes, but if you remember what I said about being in a place where I was having a hard time finding things to be grateful for, this gift of kindness from them, not only gave me something to be over the moon grateful for, they help remove one of the things that has been weighing on me for a while.

Sometimes it is a small gesture, that gives a person the one thing they need the most.

If any of my friends do read this, please remember to find your grateful moment in each and everyday, even if it is the one thing you are grateful for everyday.

Much Love,
MK

Special moments

Special moments, some examples would be, new babies, birthdays, Christmas, family reunions, celebrating some one overcoming a disease and weddings. For my family we celebrated both yesterday, my little brother married an amazing woman, and our Dad has overcome cancer so he could be there on this special day.
Yesterday was cold and rainy, it was an outdoor wedding, the announcer for the event stated that, "the rain was a reminder of those that couldn't be there that day were still there with us and they were pouring down their love upon those of us that were missing them." (No this isn't the exact quote but as close as I could remember it.) The setting was perfect, the garden's were stunning, my Dad, Mom, and her parents looked beautiful. The wedding party down to my niece looked perfectly amazing, the flowers were just right, the music was perfect, there was love and humor behind each song, there was love and laughter through out the whole thing.
You could see in my Brothers eyes and actions the nerves and excitement as he watch his friends, his little Sister, and his daughter walk down the path toward him, but the moment that stands out in my mind was when his bride entered the scene and you could see the look of pride and love that was on his face. There was a moment before all of this for me that had me in tears, it was the moment when my Brother brought my Dad and Mom out and seated them. This was a moment that over the last few years we weren't sure if it would happen, even up until a few weeks ago. Our Dad beat cancer, with our Mom by his side the whole time, it wasn't always easy for them or for us kids, but he made it, he is one of the strongest people I know. There is still a road to recovery but he is firmly on it. My daughter was seated next to me, and whispered to me, "Mom, don't cry." with a smile on her face. I whispered back to her, "I can't help it, I am so happy that we all are here for this moment, I was afraid your Grandpa wouldn't get to be here for this." She just wiped away my tears and leaned her head on my shoulder.
Special moments are not always just one moment in time, they are a series of moments all rolled up into one, as time goes on we may not remember every second of every event that we attend
 but there will always be moments that will stick with you forever. That moment and a few others from this day will always stick with me, and just like as I am writing this now will probably bring a tear to my eye.
Remember those moments, carry them with you, after you lived them to their fullest.

Much love,
MK

No sleep

Do you ever have those moments when you go to bed and are super tired, you lay down, within a few minutes you fall asleep, then what seems like hours later you wake up suddenly? When in reality you were only asleep for 15 minutes to a half an hour. Yeah that happened to me last night. Once I was awake I tried everything to make myself fall asleep, a cup of sleepy time tea, played on my PC until I was bored, and I read a few long winded articles on FB. I know part of the issue is that I think to much and cannot shut my brain off and let to many things keep it running that probably not really that important. I try often to do and old method that my HS Drama teacher taught me, pretend that there is a big brown paper bag by the door of the room and leave all the stuff that is on your mind in that bag, when you come back to it only the important stuff will remain. Sometimes that works sometimes not so much. When you are in a negative situation, it doesn't take much for someone else to remind you of some of those things that are bothering you after you have already let them go.
It is easier said than done to let it all go especially when some of the things hurt so much and some of the wounds are old but there are constant reminders of them everyday. People will tell you if you are in this kind of situation to leave, to change it, to move on because they can, they have, or because that is what they would do. Everyone always has advice. Here is my advice, be wary of the advice you offer so freely, try to know and understand the persons situation as fully as they will let you before you judge and offer them your version of what you would do. What may seem like an excuse to you may be the honest reason they are not leaving, moving or making a change. If they tell you it is money, fear, job, or a vehicle, those seem like pretty good reasons why they may not legitimately be able to make a change. Money, vehicle, and a job are easy things to fix if the person has someone who is able to help them get a vehicle, then the job and money thing will happen. If it fear, be careful, you need to make sure that as an outsider you are careful with the person, but even more careful how you get involved with the person that is causing their fear. Do not push the person who is afraid, guide them to people who can help them, be there for them when things get tough, and make sure once you get involved in helping them get out, you have the time to be there for them while they get used to being on their own, and away from the person they are afraid of. Once you have gotten their trust they will most likely only trust you for a while, and need you more often than you will think, just because they are finally away from the person does not mean they are going to feel safe right away. Remember if you choose to be someone's light, you need to remain that bright spot in their life as long as they need you not as long as you feel like it.

MK

Debating ideas

Hello again my friends, 

I feel like I have a serious case of writers block, I started this blog so I can get in touch with my creative side and start writing again which is something that I love to do. However my brain keeps rolling through 3 or 4 ideas for posts, I feel like I should start with a little about me, or I should just delve into the things I have on my mind and fit in bits and pieces about me as they are relevant. What do you think? If anyone has tried to start following his blog let me know what you want to hear about and I will try to get to what I can. At this point the different ideas keep rolling into each other so when I try to start on one of them the others bump into it, some could probably fit in with each other, but others do not really correlate with each other. Anyway, I hope to be able to get past it and figure out where to begin, as I said I would love to hear ideas from anyone who has read my first post. 

Thank you, 
MK

I decided.

So today I decided to start my blog, I have thought about doing this for a while now, but fear of others opinions, criticism, or someone taking offense to it has stopped me. In a time where everyone is offended by just about everything I figured it is time to forget about potentially upsetting one person and starting to write again. Growing up I wrote all the time, poetry, stories, whatever popped up into my head came out on paper, sometimes it was nonsense and other times it was good. Over the years I have tried to start again, but I had someone in my life tell me writing was a waste of time and was never going to turn into a career. Yeah, I was more interested in not upsetting people back then to, so I gave it up. So as I keep up with my blog, I will share stories, memories, opinions, I would even be happy to answer questions from people who stop and take time read this. I promise you I am not an expert on anything, but I will be nothing but honest in the opinions that I give here.
Other than a bit of info on why I wanted to start this blog I am undecided on how to really begin, this is my place to put my thoughts, opinions, share stories, rant, or just to write.

MK





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